by Adam Sol
You taught me language, and my profit on’t
Is I know how to curse.
They will take my island
if I don’t scorch it to the bones, though
to speak truly,
I did not know it was an island
until they said so.
I thought it was the world.
The river-fish would drift
into my clasp and I would gnaw
on their flesh while the gills still
gasped. It had edges and pleasures
and dangers.
What more is a world?
Then they arrived with their instruments.
They taught me so much
about my home it became
strange as my body became strange
when it bloomed.
They renamed
the birds after their own birds.
They taught me to sing for them,
and to delight in singing for them.
I watched their plots evolve
as a monkey watches
a jaguar wrestle a snake.
Then one day they gathered on the sand,
and my princess held the hand
of a young god,
and I cursed myself for a fool,
and the drunk bowed his head
and a pig was cooked,
and even I was given
a piece of hoof to suck on.
And they sang a song
and climbed onto some felled trees
and sailed away to heaven,
leaving me
to the wordless noises. I returned
to my caves and corners
but couldn’t remember
what to hide from. The jaguars
had been slaughtered.
The fish tasted raw.
I sat on a stone
and tried to imagine
what to think of myself.
They will return.
How can they not return
if they spoke of this place so enchantingly?
And how can I not try
to prevent them, now that
I know it is mine? How can I not resist them
with my very teeth,
or with the perfection
of a purging fire? Every sunset
I ascend the heights
of my puny kingdom,
and scan the sea for sails.
You taught me language, and my profit on’t
Is I know how to curse.
They will take my island
if I don’t scorch it to the bones, though
to speak truly,
I did not know it was an island
until they said so.
I thought it was the world.
The river-fish would drift
into my clasp and I would gnaw
on their flesh while the gills still
gasped. It had edges and pleasures
and dangers.
What more is a world?
Then they arrived with their instruments.
They taught me so much
about my home it became
strange as my body became strange
when it bloomed.
They renamed
the birds after their own birds.
They taught me to sing for them,
and to delight in singing for them.
I watched their plots evolve
as a monkey watches
a jaguar wrestle a snake.
Then one day they gathered on the sand,
and my princess held the hand
of a young god,
and I cursed myself for a fool,
and the drunk bowed his head
and a pig was cooked,
and even I was given
a piece of hoof to suck on.
And they sang a song
and climbed onto some felled trees
and sailed away to heaven,
leaving me
to the wordless noises. I returned
to my caves and corners
but couldn’t remember
what to hide from. The jaguars
had been slaughtered.
The fish tasted raw.
I sat on a stone
and tried to imagine
what to think of myself.
They will return.
How can they not return
if they spoke of this place so enchantingly?
And how can I not try
to prevent them, now that
I know it is mine? How can I not resist them
with my very teeth,
or with the perfection
of a purging fire? Every sunset
I ascend the heights
of my puny kingdom,
and scan the sea for sails.